Believe in yourself.

When I started writing A Diamond in the Rough, I didn’t know anything about anything, much less that the story was something I would want to publish. I didn’t know about point-of-view or scene breaks. I was so clueless it’s actually embarrassing. I had a story, a few characters, and some idea for a plot. One night, I was lying in bed, unable to sleep, and it was as though the characters were begging to be written. I said to myself, “okay, what the heck,” and flipped open my laptop. I didn’t stop after that.

Ideas kept coming. Hours, weeks, months, passed by. I totally slacked in school (don’t do it in Engineering, it’s no joke) and ruined my social life. I knew my writing sucked so bad, and the book was probably terrible. But that didn’t matter, because I was not a professional and I wasn’t thinking about anything but the story itself. Fast forward two months and some really nice people read my book when I very naively uploaded it to a site where writers share their artistry. They gave me very good feedback, basically saying how much they had loved the story. I really could not believe it! I mean, literally. I could not. Why would I believe I wrote something worth reading, when I hadn’t written anything in my life? I’m an Engineer; it would’ve made sense if I had launched an iPhone app. But a contemporary romance book? Not in a million years. I value logic and reason, and both could not understand why people were liking my book. I was pretty dang blown away. I cried after reading my first ever review. I called my mom and sobbed hysterically. She didn’t even know I had written a book, but that seemed like the right time to tell her. The person who wrote the review probably took two seconds of her life to hit the keys and click send, but she changed my life. I printed the review and taped it to my bathroom mirror for me to see. Thank you, to that one person. I kept going because of you. And yes, I kept it up. Here’s the review. It’s not really much, as you can tell. But it meant everything to me.

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As cheesy as it sounds, sometimes, all we need is someone who will believe in us. Someone who will whisper into our ears, “You are meant for this. Go for it!” Someone who will make us want to keep going until we unleash our potential. Because when we have that, great things start happening. We graduate from college, become leaders, win awards, run marathons. Life is hard enough as it is, and it hits us all hard. Having people who truly add to the supporting factor is a necessity!

After other good reviews came in, a light blub flickered above my head, and I realized I wanted to have more people read my book. Publish it even. It was an amazing feeling having someone like what started out inside my head. I wanted to feel more of that; whatever it was, it was making me happy. Happier than I had been in months. The hardest part was going back to what I had written, all these words, and chapters, and re-writing most of it from scratch, because it needed to be better. I needed to step up my game if I wanted to play with the big boys. It was for real now.

Thank you to everyone who has, is, or will be reading a Diamond in the Rough. It’s breathtaking to be appreciated for doing something that I didn’t even think was worth anything. Thank you for believing in me, when I didn’t believe in myself. This one’s for you, bookworms!